Turned out to be fairly accurate! Yay!
See, I suck at reading for myself. I can read for other people, but when I read for myself I'm WAY too personally involved, so its rarely accurate.
Things did fly out of left field at me during my meetings on Friday. Went to a networking lunch and was pressured to consider taking about three jobs! Its very nice to be offered, but I'm really happy where I am and don't plan on moving. Unless the museum refused to give me health insurance! (That was part of the pitch to me: "we can pay you more and give you more benefits") See, its really important to me that I can work from home in the near future. David and I are about to start trying for a baby, and I don't want to quit work after I have kids - but I want to work from home (and that is an option where I work now, but not at this other place). So, things were moving quickly and offers being made - but I kept my cool fairly well and stayed in control.
This week is Day Camp Week - so it will be long and tiring!
Today in church we talked about how important it is to meditate and pray daily to stay connected to God and to live in peacefulness. Doing a daily tarot reading is a meditation - it forces you to find a calm, quiet place and participate in a ritual - shuffling the cards and laying them out. Then you think about your life and how it pertains to the symbols laid out in front of you.
People who meditate daily are more focused, healthier, happier, and more satisfied with their lives. There are all kinds of studies showing that meditating can actually improve your IQ even!
My card for tomorrow...
Suggests being in control of your emotions - but, what strikes me in particular about the card is the way the King is looking sharply to the left. Like he's watching somone in particular - paranoia?
Part of reading cards is picking up on subtle clues in the cards, they're so visually dense and complicated that you will often notice things previously un-noticed. You have to let your intuition guide you.
Tomorrow I have a networking lunch with a bigwig from Union Station, then a meeting with someone from the Visitors Bureau. In both cases I want to make a really good impression, and make Wonderscope look great. I'm also noticing that behind the throne on the card is a ship sailing and a fish leaping out of the water - things are brewing, perhaps?
Anyway, the Cups are the suit I relate to the most. Emotional, intuitive, relationship-based cards. My signifying card is usually the Queen of Cups, and the King is basically a more dominant version.
Well, I've found that even when I'm having the worst day ever, I can feel better after listening to Ghost of the Robot. My favorites are: "Dangerous" "Smile" and "Goodbye." (And, by the way, this was one of the worst days ever.)
I don't really see how my reading yesterday had any bearing at all on my day today - I think it was completely inaccurate. I didn't feel good physically today (endo's a killer), mentally I was completely intimidated, and Spiritually I felt very drained and/or angry. Jordana told me today to use my anger to drive me, that it gives me power to get things done. But, unfortunently, I seem to do like most American women (quoting from a stand-up comic) who say to those being mean, "You say one more word and I'll - and I'll - I'll starve myself!" I need to claim that anger and direct it outward - not in a vindictive way, but in a way that empowers me to act out against injustice and to help those around me. Not just hurt myself further by becoming sick.
So, I guess I'll do a reading for tomorrow. Again with the Universal Waite, but this time just one card...
Ten of Staffs: This shows a man carrying a heavy load of sticks to his village. The card means nearing the end of a long journey and being very weary. Well, that sounds about right. I'm exhausted and I feel like I've been carrying several burdens this week, but if I can get through Thursday then I'll have a three day weekend.
So far my reading from yesterday is a HUGE bust - the grant hearing was the most horrible experience of my life. Period.
I guess it is a miracle that I didn't burst into tears at any point, so maybe I am really in control of my emotions and my body. All I want to do now is: clean my house, pay my bills, play tennis until my body hurts, and never eat again... I think I'm having control issues.